So, our first appointment is Monday - and to be honest, it's really nerve wracking. Unfortunately, the closest military hospital is proving to not be the best.. Between this appointment and the last one we have had, I have received no calls. None. Zip. Zero.
Not about my lab work, not to even confirm our pregnancy - nada.
And that upsets me. My greatest fear is that we will go in for the ultrasound and nothing will be there - just some fluke of my human body - and all this hype will have been for nothing. This fear is especially compounding since I have been feeling much better, much more normal than when we first found out. And there's a small little voice in my head telling me it's all in my head, I'm making this all up. If not for a positive pregnancy test and two missed periods, I'd almost be inclined to believe the little voice in my head.
But this is exactly how the enemy targets us - he latches on to a piece of insecurity, a piece of fear and begin to mangle and grow it until you can't ignore it anymore.
but God's word is the Truth with which we must fight back. God's word can combat any situation. While it won't tell me if there's truly a baby in there, it will tell me how to combat the Devil and his wares. Jesus says He will never leave us and forsake us. He also tells us to trust him and that is what I must do.
I can't allow my fear to overtake me and control my life - that's no way to live and we are commanded to live by faith anyway. :)
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