You gotta love military medicine

So, our first appointment is Monday - and to be honest, it's really nerve wracking. Unfortunately, the closest military hospital is proving to not be the best.. Between this appointment and the last one we have had, I have received no calls. None. Zip. Zero.

Not about my lab work, not to even confirm our pregnancy - nada.

And that upsets me. My greatest fear is that we will go in for the ultrasound and nothing will be there - just some fluke of my human body - and all this hype will have been for nothing. This fear is especially compounding since I have been feeling much better, much more normal than when we first found out. And there's a small little voice in my head telling me it's all in my head, I'm making this all up. If not for a positive pregnancy test and two missed periods, I'd almost be inclined to believe the little voice in my head.

But this is exactly how the enemy targets us - he latches on to a piece of insecurity, a piece of fear and begin to mangle and grow it until you can't ignore it anymore.

but God's word is the Truth with which we must fight back. God's word can combat any situation. While it won't tell me if there's truly a baby in there, it will tell me how to combat the Devil and his wares. Jesus says He will never leave us and forsake us. He also tells us to trust him and that is what I must do.

I can't allow my fear to overtake me and control my life - that's no way to live and we are commanded to live by faith anyway. :)

Welcome Baby Love!

I may be jumping the gun here, but I wanted to get it out there. That's right - Baby Love is due on 11 May 2014. We found out really early so this is still a shock and surprise to us both. The last month has been all about adjustment, getting used to the hormones and body changes that come with pregnancy. Needless to say, this wasn't in our "grand plan" just yet, but it's all a part of God's bigger plan for us and I'm ok with that.

I'll start from the beginning -  we got married in April and then moved to Hawaii. I went back to MD to get Schafer and returned on 11 August. I had a normal monthly in the beginning of August and the next one was due on September 4th. Labor Day came and went and nothing happened. I have never missed a period and I was so tired all the time. After about 5 days past, I decided to take a test. I half hoped it would be negative (I'm still in school and the idea was to wait until I got my degree to start having kids). I got the test that essentially says "pregnant"/"not pregnant". You're supposed to wait 5 minutes for the results to appear. I had gone to get a glass of water and left the test on the counter. I came back about 30 seconds later and lo and behold, the result said Pregnant! I was honestly in shock for a bit - then I called my Mom. She had made me promise that if I got pregnant, she'd be the first to know. Then Josh got home. I made him sit down and I showed him the test. We were both in shock for about a week. It still hasn't fully sunk in yet. Our next appointment will be on the 28th and that's when we're supposed to hear the heart beat and all that good stuff. So far, I haven't been feeling too hot. I had some really bad nausea a few weeks ago. Some smells I still can't tolerate - eggs being one of them which sucks as that was my main breakfast food. balancing nutrition and hydration has been difficult. School makes it even more complicated. But, We are taking it one day at a time. A couple weeks ago, I had the strangest craving for dark chocolate chex mix. I got a bag, had a few bites and that was enough. Overall, I've been really tired and trying to get 8-9 hours of sleep a night. I just hope I'll make it through school after the baby gets here.

How far along: 9 weeks, 1 day
Total weight gain: 1 pound give or take - it depends on the day
Maternity clothes: not really, I bought a pair of stretchy pants a couple weeks ago
Stretch marks: nope
Sleep: It comes and goes. The meds I take for nausea are also a sleep aid and it messes me up

Best moment of this week: Today was the first day I felt normal - perhaps it's because I went running....
Miss anything:  energy
Movement: nope
Food cravings:. chocolate, chicken salad
Anything making you queasy or sick:  eggs, some meats, strong food smells
Have you started to show yet: I'd like to think so, and that it's not just my belly fat protruding.
Gender:  Don't know, but I think it's a boy.
Labor signs: Nope
Belly button in or out: in
Wedding rings on or off: On!
Happy or moody most of the time:  Mostly happy - though if i'm tired, I get snappy.